Hindi ako in love, inspired ako.

I'm back! After 93856432769 days, nakapag-blog din ako. I'm sorry guys if I wasn't able to update you daily. I've been busy for a while. And since this is my back-to-back entry, I will share to all of you my love story. Kidding. I still not found my Mr. Right. I just like someone. But before that, let's have a day check (what happened to me today)

August 4, 2011

Nagising ako bandang 7:30 ng umaga pero nag-alarm ako ng 9 am. Out of nowhere bigla na lang akong nagising tapos naisip ko agad crush ko. Tulala ako ng ilang segundo, nagiisip ng kung anu-ano. Bumangon ako ng 9 am para kumaen ng breakfast, makipagkwentuhan sa parents ko, maligo at mag-ayos para sa pagpasok. 1 pm pa pasok ko, pero may general assembly organization namin kaya wala kaming class. Imbis na mag-klase kami, yun yung nagsilbing klase namin. Umalis ako sa bahay ng 11:30 am kasi magkikita kami ni Kapatid (Lara) sa Gateway. Pupunta din kasi siya sa school para i-surprise yung kaibigan ko tsaka nag-order siya ng binebenta kong watches. Ang daming kwento sakin ni Kapatid. Na-miss ko siya, ilang weeks na din kasi naming hindi nagkikita. Pagdating sa school, wala pa naman akong makakasama kaya sinamahan ko muna siya sa may eatery sa likod ng school. Andun kasi best friend niya tsaka yung mga classmates niya. Ang dami nila, HRM ata sila lahat. Nahiya ako bigla pagdating. Ang tahimik ko lang, sobra. Nakilala ko pa yung crush ni Kapatid. Gwapo, chinito ng konti tapos ang cute ngumiti. Ilang minuto nakalipas, nagkita na kami nung isa sa mga best friend ko, si Chin Kee sa may chapel. Nagpa-print kami ng homework niya tapos nag-attend na kami ng assembly sa audi. Nung uwian, tahimik lang. Mag-isa lang ako eh, walang kasabay. Kumuha ako ng orders sa supplier ko tapos umuwi din. Pag-uwi ko bonding saglit sa pamilya ko then internet na ako buong gabi. Kanina sobrang saya ko dahil sa crush ko nang biglang nag-change mood ako. Kinabahan ako bigla tapos pakiramdam ko may masamang mangyayari, na parang may nangyayari sa likod ko (backstabbing). Ang weird lang ng feeling, pero nagta-tamang hinala ako. Sobrang lakas ng instinct ko ngayon. Hanggang sa nawala na ko sa mood.

Tapos na yung today's update. Dumako na tayo sa crush ko. Sana lang hindi niya mabasa to, pero feel ko mababasa niya to kasi naka-public to. Bawal i-private. Kung pwede man, hindi ko alam kung paano.
May crush ako sa school. Minsan ko lang siya makita kasi hindi ko naman siya classmate talaga. Since last week napapasaya niya ko ng sobra. Siya yung dahilan kung bakit lagi akong kinikilig, ang cheesy ng group texts ko, status and tweets. Nung una parang wala lang, tapos ngayon crush ko na. Sobrang dami ng nangyari samin pero hindi ko masasabing siya na nga o meant to be kami kahit na napapakilig niya ako. Iba kasi yung nagpapakita ng motibo tska yung kakausapin ka lang pag tungkol sa school. Ganun kasi nangyayari samin ngayon e. Hindi ko siya makakausap kung hindi tungkol sa school. Ang dami ng nagsasabi sakin na baka may feelings siya, pero ako ayoko umasa, ayoko mag-assume kasi pakiramdam ko kaya siya ganun kasi may kailangan siya sakin o di kaya friend lang tingin niya sakin. Crush lang naman e, mawawala din to sa tamang panahon. Pero sa ngayon, siya dahilan kung bakit lagi akong masaya. Kahit hindi naging maganda yung araw ko, any part of the day na makita ko siya mabubura lahat ng kabadtripan na dinanas ko sa buong araw. Ganun kalakas impact niya sakin. Ah basta masaya ako. Hindi ako in love, inspired ako ♡

Let the good times roll

Earlier, me and my best friends went to SM North and Trinoma to have a break from school work. Even though we still have exams the following day, we find time to have fun and relax. We bought shirts for the upcoming activity in school and stuffs that we need. We had fun taking pictures though my camera fail at times, we still captured happy moments for keepsakes. The time is well spent and we really enjoyed the place. True friends are indeed the greatest gift that can never be found anywhere, only within people with a true heart. Here are some of the pictures we took. ♥

Love bugs ♡

Meet my lovable, oh so sweet best friends, Chin Kee and Alaine. We've known each other for 3 years now and still our friendship is getting more stronger because of the struggles, problems and happiness we went through. I love them so much. They are more like my sisters to me. We all have our differences but through our differences we get to enjoy and have fun with the company of each other. We have our own imperfections but we accepted and loved each other through it. We are a frustrated singer. We love to sing in a karaoke, take pictures and pig out. But now, we lessen our "pigging out" habit because we find ourselves fat and now I think all of us are on a diet. We have different interests, experiences and stories, and through it we learn. I am glad to have them in my life. They are the ones who keep things real. Real in a way that they say your imperfections in front of you. And I trust them, I really do. The best thing I really love about them is they are frank people. If you did something wrong or something is wrong with you, they will talk to you in a frankly manner so that you will learn and realize something, and it really helps. I love you guys! ♡ 

God, thank you for giving them to me. Make our friendship stronger and guide us always.

Updates

What is up bloggers? I missed you all! I haven't made a blog entry for so long, but since I don't have any class tomorrow, I'll make one tonight. Yay!
I'm on my second week of school and I am enjoying it with those people who keep things real, my friends. I don't have classes last Monday due to our national hero's birthday, Jose Protacio Mercado Rizal y Alonzo Realonda. Jose Rizal in short. Then yesterday was my friend's 18th birthday! ♥
Well, I don't have to tell you all the things I did these past few days cos as you can see, I've been going to school for 2 consecutive weeks already and all I do is to wake up 3 hours before my first class, prep up, eat breakfast, ride a train etc. My social life is okay. I have my friends with me and yes, I am still single☺. 
I would like to say hi to my regular visitor of my blog, Alice. I really don't know her full name so I'll just call her by her nickname that she always use in my chat box. And also to those who visit my blog these past few days, even though I really don't know you guys, I really appreciate it. Continue to visit my blog and don't hesitate to leave a message in my chat box. I love you guys! ☺

Bakit nga ba masakit? :)

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na.. may mga tao na huhusgahan at huhusgahan ka kahit wala ka namang ginagawang mali at masama sa kanila? Yung tipong gagawin nila ang lahat para saktan yung damdamin mo kahit na yung mga sasabihin nila ay hindi nman totoo? Yung pagtutulungan ka nilang ipahiya at pupunahin ang bawat gagawin mo dahil lang ayaw nila sayo? Wala nman sigurong taong manhid para hindi masaktan kapag ginawa sa kanila to. Pero alam nyo kung ano yung mas masakit?

Yung kaibigan mo yung isa sa kanila.. :)

Para sayo wala namang masama dun dahil ang kaibigan ay kaibigan.. na kahit sino pa ang mga kaibigan nya.. tatanggapin mo.. kasi tanggap mo sa sarili mo na yung mga kaibigan nya na yun.. importante din sa kanya..

OK lng sayo kahit hindi ka na niya ipagtanggol.. yung kahit hindi ka na niya ipaglaban.. yung kahit wala na siyang sabihin na mabuti para sayo para kahit papano hindi sila magkasira ng mga kaibigan nya..

Pero yung masakit yung iiwan ka niya para sa kanila.. :)

Nabalewala yung pinagsamahan nyo. Kahit ganun.. kaibigan mo parin siya. Kahit papano naging importanteng parte din siya ng buhay mo.Yun nga lang.. wala na siya. :)

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Meron talagang mga tao na kahit wala kang ginagawang masama sa kanila.. may masasabi parin sila sayo. :)

Kawawa nman sila.. Walang ginawa kundi humanap ng mali sayo para may maibato lng. :)) GOD BLESS YOU ALL. :D

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Lahat ng tao may magandang side.. pero hindi natin yun makikita kung sa umpisa plang hinusgahan na natin sila. :)

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“Baka kaya tayo iniiwan ng mga mahal naten kasi.. baka may bagong darating na mas okay.. na mas mamahalin tayo.. Yung taong di tayo sasaktan at paaasahin.. Yung nag-iisang taong magtatama ng mali sa buhay natin..” :’(

From  Kimpoy Feliciano

Back to school

Today was my first day of school, and it was good. I had two subjects that kept us waiting at a long time just to see and know who are our professors for the semester. I arrived school around 6:30 a.m. (early bird). I saw many frosh students and made me remember my frosh days way back two years ago. It was so hot that I kept on sweating all over my body. I felt "something different", but it went fine at the end of the day. I realized that, it will not help me either.
And by the way Dallas Mavericks won against Miami Heats, it was a good game though a bad news for Miami fans like me. Well, that is life. My dad said, Miami Heats won four years ago in the court of Dallas Mavericks, and now, Dallas Mavericks won in the court of Miami Heats. When I saw the replay of the game, it was awesome! Close fight, but unfortunately Dallas brought home the bacon.
By the way, I finally saw my ex but still, there is a gap among us though we have talked already about it. I do not know the reason, maybe his friends, that keeps on teasing us though they already know that we have broke up or maybe I just do not like to talk to him. It's not that I have feelings for him. I am over him already. I just felt like not talking to him forever. I am not bitter okay.
10 am class tomorrow until 4 pm, I am looking forward for great day tomorrow. God bless everyone! ☺

Excuse letter

Attached here are the pictures of my journal and what I did a few days ago when I didn't made any blog entry. Sorry for that. Meet my journal! ☺

I cut some pieces of things from a magazine and pasted it in my journal. Sounds childish but its fun.

Entry: D.R.E.A.M.S

Entry: Doodle

Entry: 21 things I want to do before I reach 21.

D.I.Y. Journal

5 simple rules from happiness

Explanation will follow soon.

I saw this picture on Tumblr and as I read it, I felt like I miss something/somebody. Nah. I just miss to be in a relationship like this. I used to have one, 1 year ago. A girl-to-girl relationship. We lasted for two years. I miss being missed by someone. I miss being hugged by someone. I miss having small arguments go to huge arguments because of you not texting or telling them where you are or what you are doing. I miss those corny yet sweet words that make you smile and you can't get rid of that smile on your face because you're flattered. I miss being kissed. I miss being comforted by them. I miss spending time with them doing nothing, sitting beside them makes it a worthwhile. I miss getting jealous of somebody. I miss eating with them on the same plate. I miss texting goodmorning and goodnight. I miss saying I love you etc. There are a lot of things I really miss. And truly, having a girl-to-girl relationship is better than having a boy-to-girl relationship. On my opinion lang naman.
I miss being in love. When will I be inlove again? (aww)

Action speaks louder than words.

In bullet.

1. Wake up on time. Napansin ko last school year, hindi ako sumusunod sa in-alarm kong oras. Kung dati nagigising ako 2 hours before my class, ngayon I'll make it 3 hours. Kasi nawawalan na ko ng time mag-breakfast at makapag-ayos. Wag na ko makakaen ng lunch and dinner basta breakfast kakaen ako. It's the most important meal of the day! That's what boosts my energy for the day. Mapuyat man ako o hindi, I must wake up on time. 
2. Have a balanced diet. This summer, my diet is horrible! I'll make sure that this school year, no more segway ng pagkain. After maglunch or merienda, no more food segways. And, I'll always bring water incase na magutom during class hours. Grabe, I'll buy new set of uniforms kasi sumisikip na yung old uniforms ko. 
3. Save money. Okay, here I go again. Every year, I keep telling myself to save money but I still can't. Ang gastos ko kasi sa pagkain. No to wants. Yes to needs. I have my own ATM pero hindi ko malagyan ng laman. Thank God may laman pa siya kahit 80 pesos lang.
4. Pay debts. As a student, unbelievable saten na magkaron ng utang. But yes, I have my own debts. (Reactions accepted.) Hindi ko mabayaran ng buo kasi hindi ako nakakapag-ipon. Nagpapakatotoo lang ako. Hindi ko naman nililista sa tubig mga utang ko no. Alam ko kung magkano at kanino ako umutang. Sadyang magastos talaga ko kaya hindi ko nababayaran. Babayaran ko din yung mga yun. At sisiguraduhin ko na hindi na ko mangungutang ulit kahit kanino ng wala ng masabe ibang tao.
5. Be responsible. Pagdating sa school works, napansin ko patamad ako ng patamad. Hindi ko nagagawa at napapasa ng maayos yung mga dapat kong ipasa. Minsan hindi na nga ako nakakapagaral dahil sa sobrang antukin ko kasi kulang ako sa tulog. Tendency nun e bumababa grades ko. From 1.25 na general average ko naging 2.15 na ngayon. Mantakin mo yun. Hindi ko pinagmamayabang grades ko, sinasabi ko lang kung gaano kalaki ibinaba nito dahil sa kawalan ko ng disiplina sa sarili at irresponsibility ko. Minsan "come what may" attitude pa ko. Mas inuuna ko pa lakwatcha, date, inuman o kung ano man kahit na alam kong may kailangan akong gawin at tapusin o di kaya may exam ako kinabukasan.

These are my top 5 priorities. I mean, top 5 sa listahan ko na dapat kong baguhin sa sarili ko. Mga major major ito. Yung iba minor na. Like yung pagpapaayos ng laptop ko, pagbili ko ng mga luho ko. Ayoko na din kasi i-asa sa mga magulang ko yung mga luho ko. Tinuturuan ko na din sarili ko maging mas independent kasi dalawang taon na lang graduate na ko. (Graduate nga ba?) At magtatrabaho na ko, mamumuhay na ko mag-isa. Kailangan ko ng matuto buhayin sarili ko mag-isa. Not by means of working while studying. Kahit sa pagiipon man lang para mabayaran mga utang at mabili ang mga luho. And hello, 19 na ko. Tumatanda na ko, hindi bumabata. Kailangan na maging matured ang pagiisip. I will make this school year different from the past 2 school years. I will make the most out of it.

Time to beat the heat of the sun.

Yesterday, my family and I had the chance to enjoy summer and have fun under the sun. It is our tradition to go out and hit the pool every summer since my dad's company throws family gathering every summer. Last year, we had it in Island Cove. This year, it was held in Club Manila East.

As soon as we arrived at the resort, the photographer took a photo of us. Ang puputi pa namin nyan. :))

Our cavana. 123 Kalayaan. It was big!! We shared it with other families but only few came. At the end, solo na namin yung place because they went home already as soon as the program finished.

Dad's photo with his crew mate and their boss. Toss!! And our picture with the other families at the ocean wave pool.

I am so great! hahahaha. Thank God, I finally know how to braid my hair like this. I made this by myself. This is my greatest achievement ever! ☺

 As soon as we got there, we changed into our swimming attires then the first thing we tried is the kayak. It was fun!! my brother and I had so much fun kayaking under the sun! :p

Dad's summer shot in the shaded pool. I told him to strike a pose and wear his sunglasses. Handsome daddey! ☺

Our family photo in the shaded pool. Timer lang yan. I had to run fast as I can without getting the slr wet. And fortunately, the photo is great!

I will never ever forget their buko shower. It is a shower but the concept is made from buko. Cool isn't it? Akala namin nung una buko tree talaga siya but it's not, design lang. Mom said "Kung buko juice lang lumalabas jan, kanina ko pa inupuan yan." hahaha ☺

Top view of the resort. The resort is huge. It has 8 to 10 pools. Their wave pools are the best! Huge waves. Their surfing lessons is 1500 php. The kayaking is free, zipline for 150 php. They have their shaded pool, kiddie pool, a pool with the big slide, the buzzy river, the beach wave pool, ocean wave pool, quiet pool and so much more! Sulit talaga entrance fee mo. You can stay there up to 9 pm or if you want, stay there overnight in their hotel for 3000php. The entrance fee is only 350php.

Merienda time!! We took pictures in our cavana. Halo-halo is best eaten during summer. Yum!

 My vacation will not be complete without my jump/tumbling shot. My tumbling shot is fail! hahaha. I look like uh, I don't know. It looks weird. Natatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko. But it was fun doing those stuffs. I enjoyed the place, the weather. I super enjoyed the company of my family. I had so much fun swimming whatsoever. Its surely be remembered. I hope you had a blast also this summer. ♥
Most of all we thank Genetics Maritime Corp. by making this event possible. Thank you so much!!

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Look at me now, look at me now. I'm gettin' papers ♫♪♫♪♫♪
Now I'm packing up my things for tomorrow's activity at Club Manila East. I'll be there the whole day so I might not be able to go online. (awww)

So yeah, my bed is a mess. There's my clothes, my sister's bottle bank with my feet painted w/ pink nail polish. I'm not yet done packing cause I still feel so lazy. Hahaha. I get so excited when it comes to swimming whatsoever and yet I'm so lazy to pack up my things.

And here's a picture of me, stress looking because I don't know the things I will bring tomorrow. And I've been missing somebody so much. ♥

The doll my sister is so afraid of. When she sees this, she screams so badly that the whole city can hear. I call it a "scandalous scream". Hahaha. It's getting late and I need to finish packing up and sleep early. Wish me luck! ☺

Summer 2011

Ilang linggo na lang matatapos na ang tinatawag nating mga estudyante na "bakasyon" at muli nanaman tayong sasabak sa mundo na puno ng stress, pressure at iba pa. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilalarawan ang bakasyon ko. Masasabi ko itong masaya dahil nakakapagpahinga ako ng maayos nang walang iniisip. Napupuntahan ko yung mga lugar na gusto kong puntahan ng walang time pressure at iba pa. Pero sa kabila ng kasiyahan na naramdaman ko, may lungkot din ako naranasan. Nawalan ako ng "mahal sa buhay" dahil mas pinili kong mamuhay muna mag-isa kasama ang pamilya at mga kaibigan ko. Hindi ko naman pinagsisihan ang naging desisyon ko dahil ngayon, mas naging masaya pa ako. Oo aaminin ko na may nagpapasaya sa akin, pero hindi ibig sabihin na kaya ko pinili na mawala siya sa akin ay dahil doon. Maliban sa buhay pag-ibig ko ngayong bakasyon, nagkaron din ako ng tinatawag na "buhay baboy". Narinig ko lang tong salita na to sa mga kaibigan ko na "buhay baboy" din. Nakakatawa man pakinggan pero pag ipinaliwanag ko ito sainyo, masasabi niyo ring ganun din kayo. Ito kasi yung kain, tulog, intertnet, tv, text etc. na kinagawian ng mga kabataan sa tuwing wala silang magawa pag nasa bahay sila. Couch potato kung tawagin sa ibang bansa. Siguro may iba pang tawag nito sa wikang tagalog pero para sa akin "buhay baboy" talaga ang dinaranas ko. Kasi tumataba ako e. (tawa pa)  Sa pangkalahatan, masaya ang bakasyon ko. Naging productive naman ako kahit papaano. E ikaw, kumusta bakasyon mo?